Apology

I woke up and
Felt normal
No nausea, no giddiness

All around me was normal
But I knew, she wasn't
I couldn't feel her
I couldn't smile because of her
I ruthlessly listened to the
Society and blew you off

I apologize
That I did not
Let the flower bloom

I apologize 
That I couldn't
Fight back the 
Black clouds that
Hid the shining sun

I apologize 
That I let 
The wife win

I apologize 
That the mother in me 
Was weak to scream

I apologize 
That even though
You are my part
I am letting you go

I apologize 
For remembering you
But doing nothing
That's your due

I apologize my baby
For all that 
I put you through...