Apology

I woke up and
Felt normal
No nausea, no giddiness

All around me was normal
But I knew, she wasn't
I couldn't feel her
I couldn't smile because of her
I ruthlessly listened to the
Society and blew you off

I apologize
That I did not
Let the flower bloom

I apologize 
That I couldn't
Fight back the 
Black clouds that
Hid the shining sun

I apologize 
That I let 
The wife win

I apologize 
That the mother in me 
Was weak to scream

I apologize 
That even though
You are my part
I am letting you go

I apologize 
For remembering you
But doing nothing
That's your due

I apologize my baby
For all that 
I put you through...

The Final Goodbye...

The most beautiful creations of God are - 
The flower that blooms,
The Sun that shines,
The Moon that soothes,
The caterpillar to a butterfly,
The birth of a soul like you
And all the memories made
Because of you

As a beautiful flower is born
And the legacy starts
You, my granny
Was the reason
For a beautiful family 
We share

As the sun casts upon
The Earth,
the warmth of it rays
We know you are there,
Showering blessings on us
Across the heavenly skies 

As the moon guides 
A lost soul on a dark night
You will guide us
Through smiles and turmoils
Through loss and pain
Always making sure
We don't loose anything
Only gain

As a bird that soars high
In the sky
We will succeed 
Because we have your
Blood and you trust us
To soar high

And as a flower withers away
Its fragrance is always felt
Around
You have left us a
Bonded family,
Beautiful memories
And warmth
That still spreads

Every passing day
Will remind us of you
And your smile
And the pricking 
Sense of your loss 
And an amazing soul 
Who is now 
With the Divine

The Last Breath

I got the call
And I felt
The sky did fall

My brother said
Granny’s no more
Felt like something was 
Snatched away ruthlessly
And mercilessly 

Aren't we supposed to say
A Final Goodbye?

Time heals the wounds
They say
But can time fill in vacuum
Created by someone’s absence?

I saw her
On the bed
Eyes closed
And her body 
Lay numb

I wanted to touch her
Kiss and hug her
But I couldn't
The body was my granny’s
But the soul left
There was no warmth
No love, 
Just a body
Wanted to shout and scream

My sister sat there
Beside me
Crying and wallowing 
I wanted to console her
But words ditched me
I was in pain and
How could I convince someone?
It’s all a part of the game?

The love she infused
And the relations she made
Will be with us 
Till our last breath

Our granny
Our strength
We will miss you
No matter where you are
You will always know
You will be with us
In our memories
And in our smiles

We have loved you
And will always love you