My Love, My Life

I want to wake up
In the middle of the night
And look at you beside me
And sigh at the sight

I want to wake up in the mornings
And listen to your
Love filled heart beating

I want to spend my evenings
With you beside me
And a cappuccino between we

I want to take a Stoll
With you
And enjoy the glow of the moon
That's new

I want to spend every minute
Making and creating memories
Which.will make me.smile
During my worries

I want to make this
Life beautiful
With you, by my side
Who will also be
My friend, philosopher
And guide

Visiciousness

I saw her struggling

Putting efforts of mingling

Put a facade and move on

The real one

Somewhere gone

Like oil and water

Which mix but

Doesn’t matter

She mixed but it

Hardly mattered

For she was always

Aloof and apart

In spite of being a part

That’s when I decided

I will be better than her

Rebel and fight for

Me and her

I would break the shackles

And give her a few moments

From her dream spree

Let her live and make her choice

Even if she feels

Too old to rejoice

And that’s how I grew

As her daughter

And that was the only

Thought that mattered

Seeing, watching, noticing

Promising myself

One day I would

Let her

Breathe, feel free and

Live the life she dreamed with glee

Even if it means for a few hours

Among the whole plethora of
Un- individualistic years

I respect and love her

Because she gave me this

Beautiful world

And forever a special place

She will hold

Days changed into months

And months into years

I felt I was moving close

To break her free from her fears

Little did I know?

I would be married

And the same resilience would be carried

I became a working wife

And mother

And amidst life

Lay the shards of
A shunned bother

Years later, as I sit on the rocking chair

Reading about eve- teasing, rapes, female feticide

And the world being unfair

I realized

I am the same woman

Even if it bothered

I didn’t speak, I didn’t care

And I somehow expect the world

To be fair

How fair?

If we don’t let the world know

We really care!!!

Daily Life of an Indian Couple

Some-days I understand
And some days I hope
You understand

I know you work hard
But don't treat me like
A priority last
This makes me sad
And I really feel bad

I know you have a reason
But not every time
Spring is the season

We grow old
And we wouldn't have
The strength
To forever hold

So before things fall apart
And this becomes a routine
Take some time off
And spend time like a teen

Life is simple, lovely and carefree
Only if you manage to break
Yourself free
From the shackles of your employee

I know, what my Friend want!!!

Loneliness and solitude

I love those in multitudes

I look up to heavens

To throw light on the paths

You have strewn

I would go to the ends of earth

To find one moment

Where the air is filled with

A mixture of our breaths

I search you in words

Where beauty lies

Even in swords

You are my poem

Unwritten, unheard, unsung

You are a dream, unfulfilled

You are my space

I shut the world out

To spend my time

With a girl who has a pout

You are my infinite

Where minutes

Doesn’t matter

And I don’t spite

When I am with you

Words fall silent

And it’s just brilliant

I wouldn’t give up on you

Because you are my

Dream that is still due

#Peshawar

I woke up lazily
And dragged myself
Out of the bed
Only to be plunged
in Red

I got ready
And hurried
Round the corner
Without realizing
That my school
Would act
As a burner

I hugged my kid
When he left
And when
I met him later
It was his body
In pieces and tatter

I was getting late
To the class
And I wished
My teacher wouldn't
Notice

I never wished
I would be
On a slab of ice

I was munching
A chocolate
Savoring the taste
Although in haste
I never imagined
You would make
My body chaste

You, a soulless, cruel
Barbarian
Robbed the family
Of a gem

In the name of Religion
In the name of Freedom
You took away Children
Because they reminded you
Army, Discipline and Integrity

Satan would be ashamed
Of the act you committed
May you rot in the pits of hell
And doomed be forever your shell

Screwed up...

I looked at you
And said yes
To his proposal

I knew it wasn't right
But I even knew you
Weren't by my side

Everyone was happy
Except me

And then the life went back
It should have been laughter
Not sorrow
Should have been blissful
Not horror

I did the unthinkable
And let go of him
Only to find you
And the road's bend

I started erasing the past
And building a future
Dreams. hopes and choices
I thought I was the wisest

I never knew
History would repeat
And you would give up on me

I thought we were together
Because of you I had that stupid grin
I never thought it would dim

I never thought we would part ways
And never look each other's face

You left me with scars so deep
It's difficult to look beyond
And peep

I lay in my bed
Thinking about you
And cry at the times
Wasted for you

Now I do not cry
For the tears have dried
You have ripped my heart
And said Good Bye

A part of me wants to
Get back to routine
But I know I have changed
And no more the girl
Who embraced life
But someone who is
Screwed up
And doesn't wish to
Be alive.

The Girl!!!

She was a girl
Who wanted to run
In the Wild
Sometimes leaving her
Sanity and run like a child

She was a girl
Who loved flowers, surprises
And love notes dropped
Around the corners

She was a girl
Who had her world
Beyond boundaries
And hoped someday
Someone would fulfill
Her eccentricities

She was a girl
Half mad
Looking out for someone
Who was her match

Words and expressions
Were her favorite of all
Which resonated passion
Without the need
To touch at all

Cut to now...

She is the girl
Who walks the path
With caution and thought

She is a girl
For whom
Family dinners, kids and in laws
Have taken the priority

She is the girl
Who shut her world
So that she shouldn't be bothered

She is the girl
Who is now mature and sane
Her eccentricities locked away
And the key lost somewhere

But she is still the girl
For whom
Words and expressions
Are her favorite of all
Which resonates passion
Without the need
To touch at all