Screwed up...

I looked at you
And said yes
To his proposal

I knew it wasn't right
But I even knew you
Weren't by my side

Everyone was happy
Except me

And then the life went back
It should have been laughter
Not sorrow
Should have been blissful
Not horror

I did the unthinkable
And let go of him
Only to find you
And the road's bend

I started erasing the past
And building a future
Dreams. hopes and choices
I thought I was the wisest

I never knew
History would repeat
And you would give up on me

I thought we were together
Because of you I had that stupid grin
I never thought it would dim

I never thought we would part ways
And never look each other's face

You left me with scars so deep
It's difficult to look beyond
And peep

I lay in my bed
Thinking about you
And cry at the times
Wasted for you

Now I do not cry
For the tears have dried
You have ripped my heart
And said Good Bye

A part of me wants to
Get back to routine
But I know I have changed
And no more the girl
Who embraced life
But someone who is
Screwed up
And doesn't wish to
Be alive.

The Girl!!!

She was a girl
Who wanted to run
In the Wild
Sometimes leaving her
Sanity and run like a child

She was a girl
Who loved flowers, surprises
And love notes dropped
Around the corners

She was a girl
Who had her world
Beyond boundaries
And hoped someday
Someone would fulfill
Her eccentricities

She was a girl
Half mad
Looking out for someone
Who was her match

Words and expressions
Were her favorite of all
Which resonated passion
Without the need
To touch at all

Cut to now...

She is the girl
Who walks the path
With caution and thought

She is a girl
For whom
Family dinners, kids and in laws
Have taken the priority

She is the girl
Who shut her world
So that she shouldn't be bothered

She is the girl
Who is now mature and sane
Her eccentricities locked away
And the key lost somewhere

But she is still the girl
For whom
Words and expressions
Are her favorite of all
Which resonates passion
Without the need
To touch at all

Love Unfulfilled

She looked at the sky that spread over her… a calmness seeped through her. Wishing he should have been here, with her. And then he hugged her from behind. Warmth rushed through her body and she leaned on him. Closing her eyes, she felt his breath on her neck and wished time stopped. Everything was calm around, not within. Within her, raged a war of emotions and feelings. She wanted to throw caution out of the window. She turned towards him, kissed him deeply, as if kissing him for the last time. It was indeed her last time. Then she walked away from him, to her home. Leaving a piece of her with him, walking towards the jigsaw puzzle, she was a piece of. 

Monsoon...

It wasn't Monsoon, yet there was water everywhere. Oh! Crazy, she had tears in her eyes. Age does that to you, right? She brought the paper, close to her eyes again, trying to read each word again. Did she miss the line, where he wrote, “I will come and take you, Mom, from the aged home.” She was hallucinating, sure she was. The bell rang; she stood and walked towards the dining hall, throwing the paper in the dust-bin. Clouds thundered outside, skies grew dark and it poured. Heavy and huge droplets fell, making intolerable noises. But she ate her salad, as the doctor advised. After all, she had only herself to take care of.

Tiny Tales # 1

Memories came flooding by,
I helplessly let them rush to me
All I did was drown in them,
And forget the rest of me
I knew it was for a few minutes,
But it felt I lived a lifetime in thee

An Affair to Remember...

You guess you are happy with a person

But there are scars that the other person

Doesn't see, doesn't acknowledge

Doesn't help you heal

And you let yourself go cold

Sometimes the ignorance hurts,

Sometimes its makes your eyes water

Sometimes you don’t care to react

And then comes another person

A friend, a lover

Or whatever

Sometimes it doesn't have a name

It just comes to you

The missing puzzle of you

You fix like jigsaw puzzle

You were supposed to be together

Or so you thought

But fate had different plans

So you carry on with your

Missing piece

Day after day

Month after month

Till you make so many memories

That even in solitude you can smile

This is exactly an affair to remember

It might be brief

It might be long

But only you know the

Lines of this song

And for me

That person is you.. 

Apology

I woke up and
Felt normal
No nausea, no giddiness

All around me was normal
But I knew, she wasn't
I couldn't feel her
I couldn't smile because of her
I ruthlessly listened to the
Society and blew you off

I apologize
That I did not
Let the flower bloom

I apologize 
That I couldn't
Fight back the 
Black clouds that
Hid the shining sun

I apologize 
That I let 
The wife win

I apologize 
That the mother in me 
Was weak to scream

I apologize 
That even though
You are my part
I am letting you go

I apologize 
For remembering you
But doing nothing
That's your due

I apologize my baby
For all that 
I put you through...